That's right. 7 days sober. But to get here I had another meltdown, but this time I called my dad and told him everything. Well, not everything, but the main points, such as, help, I can't stop drinking and I'm horribly depressed. My parents came down and took me and the dog home, I took … Continue reading 7 Days Sober and Counting….
I've been drinking heavily since Thursday, and have done nothing with my holidays at all. I'm thoroughly fed up with myself, and with sitting here writing posts about 'this is it, no more! I can do this!'..... and then the next day going, no wait, I messed up again. I was bored and down last … Continue reading The Drunk Files
Right, lets get it all out in the open. I had a horrible binge on Sunday because I knew I was off work on the Monday. Someone recommended Jason Vale's book 'Kick the Drink Easily!' which I read in one sitting. And it really hit home. He totally shatters the whole illusion of alcohol, that … Continue reading The Good, the Bad, and the Hungover.
I have to dash, but I will be back, with good news.......!
There really is no point in me writing at the moment. Documenting this struggle is just getting too depressing. I can look back over posts and see how miserable I was feeling and considering I'm in a worse position at the moment, its not helping. Also, I don't think its really helping anyone who follows … Continue reading Taking a break from blogging
My 'recovery' hasn't started yet, its actually getting worse. I obsessed about wine on the drive back, then did the whole drank a bottle, ordered takeaway with another bottle, blacked out and work up this morning hating every cell in my body. I couldn't tell you the last night I slept not under the influence. … Continue reading Disaster.
So, I failed miserably at my goal of not drinking today at my parents. It was a lovely sunny day, we sat in the garden, the dog was basking in the sun. Then it got to the witching hour and my mum asked 'do you want a glass of wine with your dinner?' (Chinese takeaway) … Continue reading Drank a bit, but not a disaster.
I've lost track of how much I've drank this week, but its been a lot. No reason for it, nothing bad going on, maybe a little board, but I've been too hungover to do anything so what do I expect? Woke up this morning with an aching lower back again, I look horrific. I bleached … Continue reading The battle rages on.
Im just back from my appointment at the addiction service, and I'm drinking wine. To be fair, I sat through the appointment with the bottle in my bag (the non addicted part of my brain is banging its self against a wall), but my intention was only to have a glass (yeah right, who am … Continue reading Anti-Blogosphere
I was doing so well, but the combination of a couple of nights rough sleep, with really weird dark dreams, and obviously the addiction itself, lead me to the store, and to buy a bottle of wine and pizza, my go to drinking food of choice. I'm annoyed at myself, but also slightly hopeful. I … Continue reading Day 4 kicked my ass.